I am so sorry. I do know some of how you must be feeling. I lost most of my family over time, every two years someone got called to a far better place. On the 4th of August this year I said bye to my sister and kissed her. I live in a different town now and visited two sisters when weather allowed as it was 30 miles away and three buses if my son could'nt take me.
On the 5th I got a call to say my sister had suffered a sudden death. She must have had a migraine and lay on the bed and never woke up.
I am still suffering the grief as you are thats how I understand Will. I have episodes of crying. She was my life, my confidant, my best friend and I miss her like mad.
They say Will it gets easier, I hope so for you and I. I hope your wife gets well and I will pray for her in my daily prayers.
Peace Will, Kate